On my way go to office, I just realized that there are so many butterflies flying in bright sky in Bandung city in this morning. My eyes were stare on each trees on the side of the road. There were beautiful colors flying on each flower of the trees. I was enjoying them, as if they were accompanying me along the way so that I wasn’t feel so empty.
I am taking deep breath with smile and said in my heart “ God, thank you so much for the strengthen that you gave me in this morning, The beautiful butterflies in this morning remain me that there so much a bit things of your kindness that able to strengthen me and you are there always for me “
Sometimes worried comes over me so hard and it was so overwhelm me but again God comes to me by the beautiful butterflies. There are so many a bit things that already forgotten and unrealized me that His love is so big for me, even though dark storm hit me, but I realized that dark storm which is come in my live is also His mighty work beyond our grasps. That storm herding me to realize His power and that storm is also making me closer to Him.
Life should be continued by me and my beloved son, Andro. There is Big God in us, why should I afraid and restless ? As written in Psalm 146 : 9 “The Lord protects and preserves the strangers and temporary residents, He upholds the fatherless and the widow and sets them upright, but the way of the wicked He makes crooked “ so why should I doubt with His Mighty? Hallelujah.
It’s been more a year my husband already be in heaven, just today I could write again in these words and sentences. Like David said in Psalm 34 : 18 “ The Lord is close to those who are of a broken heart and saves such as are crushed with sorrow for sin and are humbly and thoroughly penitent “. Right, He never leave me and my son, He take care my heart and my little boy that at that time he was nine months old when his dad go to Heavenly Father’s home. He keeps my heart so that I am not so broken and depressed in sadness. He’s cheers me up so does my son by given me way to face up my days again so that I can stand up again to continue our live.
Now, I just surrender my days in God. I always say thanks for everything that He has given to me, for healthy body, for Andro’s growth that convince me even my son does not have dad but he has heavenly father that will always take care on him and for the job that He has gave to me even I should fight with bitterness but I am sure God will provide us beautiful rainbow in our future for me and Andro.
There is always way that God provide if we’re really surrender and count on Him.